You may find yourself:
struggling with rejection
feeling responsible for how others feel
softening your message so people don’t feel offended
feeling drained from constant masking & adaptation
often socially disconnected or detached
This work is shaped by navigating that tension. I know this tension well, because I’ve lived on both sides of it:
the outspoken version of myself who was often “too much”, “too deep”, & “too socially awkward,” and the agreeable version who learned how to be quiet, stay distant, and be agreeable to keep the peace…
E.T. Jennings
The philosophical writer of taboo thoughts
Philosophical Orientation:
I write about people-pleasing, perception, identity, and the gradual development of self-trust. I write about the liminal phases in life and the internal struggles of balancing complexity, loss, and life transitions.
Much of my perspective has been shaped by lived experience with complex PTSD & hypervigilance, as well as years of training as an athlete where discipline, resilience, embodiment, and internal calibration became essential forms of healing for me.
My passion for athletic training taught me something philosophy later confirmed, which is that clarity is rarely found by escaping difficulty, but by developing the capacity to move through it without losing yourself completely.
My thinking draws from multiple disciplines: psychology, philosophy, anthropology, economics, theology, symbolic interpretation, and cultural observation.
I hope you have fun exploring this blog because I am always open to learning & growing in my philosophy and knowledge. I don’t believe there’s a ceiling to knowledge, and I am always interested in how people make meaning, how identity evolves across contexts, and how perception changes as self-trust strengthens.
If you’re curious about my worldview & spirituality, I’d consider myself Omnist…although I find it hard to tie any human being to one limited box or path within this infinite world.
Oh!…and lastly, laugh. I find that laughter is really the best medicine, at least for me. So don’t take much to heart; connect with what you feel resonates, and leave the rest behind.
Outside of writing esoteric thoughts:
People will judge and talk about you ‘til the day you die…
Allow yourself to be misunderstood.
Because you can’t realistically please everyone!!
I find that drawing is one of the many relaxing ways my mind can calm itself and ground into creative expression. I love observing symbols, colors, and nature overall, and creating & designing fashion! I’ll spend hours sewing outfits from new fabrics to used clothes I bought at a thrift shop!
